Archive for the ‘Awareness’ Category

The Whole Thing and its Parts

December 29, 2021
Entrance to Lightscape at Chicago Botanic Gardens

We visited Lightscape at the Chicago Botanic Gardens last evening. Various artists transformed groves of plants and trees into light and music experiences.

We had our first significant snow of the year yesterday. Even with temperatures above freezing (38F or 3C) causing some melting, the vestiges of the white snow perfectly enhanced the experience.

The highlight for me was a laser light show across a small lake. Dancing lights to a festive piece of music. In contemplation just in the moment, I de-focused my eyes and absorbed the experience. Yet all the while part of my mind was thinking of the technical intricacies of the lights themselves and the programming required.

Listening to s symphonic orchestra is the same experience. I listen to the whole piece while also noticing the work and movements of each instrument and how the composer and then conductor has brought them altogether for a beautiful whole piece.

Similarly, one should read a great book including Scripture. You must absorb the whole of the main argument of the writer while yet enjoying the parts. One errs by picking out sentences while yet missing the whole thought.

Yet, how often readers of spiritual texts do just that. And not only Christians. Check out how often you also see that trait in the Hindu and Islamic traditions. A human trait, this is, as Yoda might have put it.

And a human trait we can learn to overcome with awareness and practice.

Just don’t think so much that you miss the beauty of the whole.

Oh How The Mind Churns

November 15, 2021

We get caught in a trap. It’s like the little exercise wheel we put in the gerbil cage. Much energy is expended going faster and faster but going nowhere.

What we did or said really wasn’t that bad. Besides, it’s all their fault. Or, how could I be so stupid. Or, everyone hates me.

It’s possible that we could be that patient whom the psychologist told, “You’re not paranoid. Everyone does hate you.”

But, probably not. Most of the time most people really regard you positively.

And, so, it becomes our task to realize that people really will give us the benefit of the doubt. We just need to get off that exercise wheel to nowhere. We must step away from ourselves a bit with some self-awareness. Then deal with it.

A quick apology from the heart when we’ve said the wrong thing or screwed up something keeps us out of the gerbil wheel of blame.

Smile at people you meet. Most return the smile. And both of you have a little bit of sunshine in your day.

The calm mind wins the day. Warriors understand that the calm mind helps them survive and win. Athletes learn that the calm mind leads to superior performance.

It starts with self-awareness. And continues with controlling our breath.

Knowledge of Sin is the Beginning of Salvation

October 27, 2021

The knowledge of sin is the beginning of salvation. I could be quoting that from many sources. This one happens to be the Roman Stoic philosopher Seneca. At times he sounds so much like the Apostle Paul that it is painful.

One gimmick that always worked for humor in cartoons is to exaggerate an action with consequences poised in suspense until the character realizes his predicament. Take the Roadrunner and Wile E. Coyote cartoons. The coyote would miss the roadrunner running off the top of a cliff. But he didn’t drop until he realized there was no ground beneath his feet.

That works metaphorically with us. We just go on our merry way with our hateful attitudes or sexual affairs or consuming too much food or drink or carrying that grudge against someone.

Then one day it all comes crashing down around us. Health, relationships, finances.


We wake up before reaching the edge of the cliff. Stop. Think it over. Realize what we’re doing. Understand the consequences of the direction we’re traveling. And allow salvation to heal us.

Or you will be like the subject of The Rolling Stones song:

You better stop, look around

Here it comes, here it comes, here it comes, here it comes

Here comes your nineteenth nervous breakdown

Keith Richards/Mick Jagger


October 14, 2021

Ryan Holliday has created a lucrative niche writing about the Stoics. Unlike writers on spiritual disciplines from the Christian tradition who are not mainstream evangelicals. He recently looked a a series of Stoics who, although writing deeply about wisdom, weren’t always all that wise in action. They made mistakes in their daily and business and political lives.

Jesus never invited a perfect person into his group. Never. Check them all out. Flaws. Some glaringly obvious. Peter—need I say more? James and John arguing over political positions in the kingdom that was coming. Mary, the former prostitute.

Yet, our evangelical churches (maybe almost all churches?) act as if you need to be perfect to join and remain perfect for life. Otherwise, the gossiping, avoiding, criticizing begin.

But (and as they like to say, a big but), we are not perfect. Not one of us. Perhaps some of us manage to sail through the calm waters of life thinking we’re perfect, but those people are delusional.

God made an unforgettable impression on me in mediation years ago by showing me all the ways in which I am not perfect. Not that I don’t have small remembrances many times a day of actions where I was less than perfect.

That’s OK. God also showed me that none are perfect, yet all are welcome into his domain. Jesus brought them all into the fold. Perhaps we need to learn a lesson.

This has a name, and its name is grace.

Change Your Point of View

October 11, 2021

We moved at the beginning of the Covid pandemic. There was no way we were getting a painter in. There was no way that I was going to paint the entire house myself. We lived with contractor white walls everywhere until a few weeks ago.

When we moved in, I listened to my wife who always wanted my desk in Ohio situated so that you look out the window. So, I put my desk in this house against the wall looking out at the yard. I always felt uncomfortable. I decided one day to turn the desk around. My back is to the window. I’m facing the door. I chose a deep blue as a soothing, meditative color when we painted.

I now feel more comfortable whether at this desk for reading or my standing desk to the right out of the picture.

Changing your point of view, that direction from which you observe things, broadens perspective. You can take in other views. Consider additional facts and opinions.

This also leads to growth and maturity. Try looking at things differently. It’s possible you’ve missed something important. And you may feel more in the flow.

The Spirit Becomes Dull

September 27, 2021

Why do demons wish to commit acts of gluttony, impurity, avarice, wrath, resentment, and the other evil passions in us? Here is the reason–that the spirit in this way should become dull and consequently rendered unfit to pray. For when man’s irrational passions are thriving he is not free to pray and to seek the word of God.


These passions suck your energy. And what have you to offer other than your energy?

These passions have invaded me at times. And God has shown me what more I am capable of. When these visit me at my times of meditation or working, my energy is diverted and squandered.

You rise from the desk to get a handful of peanuts or almonds for energy (and no subsequent weight gain) and your eye goes to the pantry’s snack food shelf. And one potato chip or cookie turns into a continual reaching for more, just what the food scientists working for those companies predict. Thank you gluttony for destroying my day, dulling my senses, increasing my waistline.

While researching something on the Web, you see one picture. The demons (as Evagrius calls them, we call them impulses) grab your imagination and all energy is diverted down an unhealthy path.

The comedian Flip Wilson (popular in the 60s) portrayed a character whose phrase was, “Get behind me Satan!” Actually, good advice.

  • Awareness of the approaching passion/emotion;
  • Intentionally push back;
  • Focus again on the task at hand;
  • Regain energy after a momentary diversion.


September 22, 2021

We kill at every step, not only in wars, riots, and executions. We kill when we close our eyes to poverty, suffering, and shame. In the same way all disrespect for life, all hardheartedness, all indifference, and all contempt is nothing else than killing. With just a little witty skepticism we can kill a good deal of the future in a young person. Life is waiting everywhere, the future is flowering everywhere, but we only see a small part of it and step on much of it with our feet.

Hermann Hesse

We can go through life so unaware. Never noticing how we affect those around us near and far. We are as if in out cocoon. A bubble where everything is about us.

And yet, one cutting word thoughtlessly spouted can ruin someone’s day or even their life. One stupid repost of a “witty” meme on social media can ruin a career or people’s trust in you.

It’s hard to be like Jesus who seemed to be aware of everyone around him. But it is a goal toward which we strive every morning as we rise and go.

You Cannot Unsee

September 21, 2021

Be aware of how you fill your mind. Your news sources. Social media use. TV shows. Books. Newsletters.

What you ingest determines your outlook on life, even your personality.

Your thoughts determine your actions. Your actions determine who you are.

We’re on a vacation (well, for me a sort of working vacation) at a popular resort. Last night we saw an illusionist (used to be called magician). He commented at one point, “You can’t unsee this.”

It’s true. There are things you’ve experienced that you cannot unsee. Once it’s buried in your mind, it’s there.

All the more reason to be aware and then selective of what you allow in.

A Cask Full of Holes

September 13, 2021

The man who stores up injuries and resentments yet fancies that he prays might as well draw water from a well and pour it into a cask that is full of holes. –Evagrius

That moment before you click “post” on Facebook or “tweet” on Twitter or “send” in your email app, that moment between reactive thought and public unveiling, that moment when you could have paused and inhaled deeply–what stored up injury or resentment is releasing its venom upon your friends, acquaintances, strangers who now think differently about you?

That moment when you sit to pray and your anger and hate spill over. Then, what is the condition of your heart? Is it that of the penitent of whom Jesus taught to settle things with the other person before approaching the Temple?

In that moment can be the pause where we realize the problem is not them but what is within ourselves. And how we can now lay aside those burdens and stand naked before God asking for grace.

It is that which TS Eliot wrote, “…at the still point, there the dance is…and there is only the dance.”


September 10, 2021

Sometimes we change–and we don’t change. Or, we change one vice for another.

Perhaps we are a judgmental, abrasive type of person. We “become a Christian.” And we become a judgmental, abrasive Christian. Know any of those? What would Jesus think?

Perhaps we gain the virtue of humbleness. But then we become proud of our humility.

Self-awareness becomes the key to change. When we gain the ability to see ourselves, only then can we become the change we seek.