Have you ever found yourself somewhere only to ask yourself, “What am I doing here? How did I get here?”
We can think geographically or socially or emotionally.
I immediately had flashbacks of being somewhere between 17 and 19 riding in a car on back country roads with a crazy guy going 100 miles-per-hour (160 kmh). What am I doing here?
Perhaps you were at a dive bar or other place where only trouble happens.
It could be a relationship. Or a job. Or a church. Or lack of any of those.
Now is the part of a normal religious writing especially for the Web where we offer 10 things you can do to improve your life or 7 sure steps to leave the rut. Or, if I were a fundamentalist, I’d just say “Find Jesus and all will be well.”
To quote George Costanza from Seinfeld, “I got nothin’.”
I wish I had a formula about how awareness grew within me. I became aware of where I was. Then I became aware of something better. And aware of someone or something that was trying to help.
Sometimes awareness follows a significant event. Sometimes awareness is like a small seed that grows within until the mature plant blooms within. “Ah ha,” we say to ourselves (or to a significant other person). “How could I have been so blind?”
I once was lost, but now I’m found; was blind but now I see.
What did I realize? I made choice that led me there. I could make other choices to lead me out. Maybe I just needed to recognize the pointers to help me with those choices.
Faith Venture 
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